there are no stars tonight
only thick clouds roaming above this town
I see red clouds
sometimes orange
sometimes pale grey
reflecting every color this city can offer tonight

I can see one star
sparkling dimly in the northern sky
its light has to fight the thick clouds
that block its way into my eyes
as the wind blows
guiding the clouds
like packs of sheep floating in the sky

my watch says it’s 2 am
I can hear clearly
the sound of a water pump
from the house next door
and the stray cats
meowing in sync

tonight is not a quiet night
as I thought it would be

I’m here sitting
with a cig in my left hand
a glass of rum in my right hand
expecting the voices in my head
to be as loud as it can get

I’m waiting
to have a conversation with my demon
one on one
vis-à-vis

but here I am
not even a single demonic voice come out of my head

even my demons do not want to face me
they leave me hanging
on this gloomy night
in my own void